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let's go a li'l pinoy this time.... magtatagalog ako ngayon para masaya... my first tagalog blog ever!

i don't know, but there's this guy kasi... i really like him.... A LOT! we've met at the right time but the timing is not perfect??? what??? ano daw yun??? basta late kaming nagkakilala...

let's  say, the day we've met, we're both single and AVAILABLE kaso as time runs,  nagkaron siya ng gf...  it made me feel soooooooo sad... i must say, i was really hurt!

and everytime na itatry kong iwasan siya or what, parang nananadya talaga ang tadhana... saka naman siya magmemessage or magpapakita sakin... it's so nakakainis diba???

and i hate myself kasi hindi ko talaga siya matiis... as in!

before, lagi ko lang sinasabi na, crush ko lang siya...mga ganon...kasi yun naman talaga ang "akala" ko dati.... pero just recently kasi, parang nakapag-isip ako ng bonggang bongga then may nangyari pa... ayun! parang that "thing" made me realize na gusto ko pala talaga siya... i don't know if todo yung pagkagusto na yun or what...basta i like him! i really really like him...

kaso yun nga, he's taken! i'm really irritated kapag nakikita ko sila together.. la lang, naiinis lang ako...hehehe! but no, i'm not jealous naman.... hindi naman ako selosa... la lang, nakakainis lang kasi dapat talaga kami! hahaha, echos!

no, but seriously, it's an ouch naman talaga diba? makita mo yung guy na you really like na may kasamang iba.... 

so yun! i just feel the need na ilabas tong nafifeel ko right now...i'll go crazy kapag hindi ko to nailabas...promise!

gusto ko talagang mawala whatever feelings i have for him right now...kasi nga diba, hindi nga kami pwede...as in hindi!

it'll hurt me more kapag hindi nawala to! kasi naman eh!

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is this really a tagalog blog? hahaha! taglish ata pero pwede na rin! diba???

nakakarelate ba kayo???

hay...........

Why Do I Love You

Suddenly he's 
Leaving
Suddenly the
Promise of love has gone
Suddenly
Breathing seems so hard to do

Carefully you
Planned it
I got to know just
A minute to late, oh boy 
now I understand it
All the times we
Made love together
Baby you were thinking of her

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Ain't gonna show no
Weakness
I'm gonna smile
And tell the whole world I'm fine
I'm gonna keep my senses
But deep down
When no one can hear me
Baby I'll be crying for you

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

Can't go back
Can't erase
Baby your smiling face oh no
I can think of nothing else but you
Suddenly

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue (love you like I do)
Why do I love you like I do

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i've changed some of the lyrics...

from her to him

from he's to she's

from girl to boy

obviously i did that because i'm a girl...........

I Love My Grades!

It was a tough sem. It was tougher than I expected. There was A LOT of work to do and A LOT of commitments to attend to.

But thank God, I've got good grades. The sleepless nights, stressed and "ngaragness" moments paid off. I never expected that I’ll maintain what I had last semester. Well, I can now say that I survived.

You know, I've been waiting for the grades to be completed since a week ago, and it really makes my adrenaline shoot up to the highest level.

Anyway, I am still excited this coming semester. Will it be tougher than the previous semesters? Well, let’s see. 

First sem is over. I hope I could maintain my grades or do better next sem.

Thanks to all my profs!!!

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1.00 for major subject! Love it!

Sadness and Pain

Have you ever loved someone but knew they didn't care?
Have you ever felt like crying but knew you'd get no where?

Have you ever looked into their hearts and wished that you were there?

Love is grand, yet it hurts so much. The price you pay is high. If I could choose between Love and Death, I'd rather choose to die.

I look up as a tear rolls slowly down my cheek. I think about better days and wonder if I'll feel that way again.

When is it time to say goodbye?

When is it time to end your pain?

Deep inside of me, something is missing. Al I do is talk to myself in the mirror, with my reflection. My heart is dead. Soon it will make a resurrection, once the wounds heal and I'm loved for real. A type of love I can feel. But nobody loves me. Nobody cares. Nobody loves me. That nobody is me. I can't love myself because no one does. I'm all alone and no longer what I once was. But the only thing that keeps me alive is knowing that the next day, it might all change for the best. And that "nobody" becomes somebody.

I will never forget the days we once had. The days when you were everything to me. My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever but now I realize that was all a big dream. The feelings I have for you will never go. I wish I could take back that one regretful day, the day when I willingly let you slide from my arms. Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets that I would once have to live through. The thought that you're not mine anymore makes my heart shatter into a million pieces. I sometimes wonder if you still think of me or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd. I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back. But for now, I'll sit here silently, remembering all the memories we once shared. Everyday my love grows much stronger. Hoping that one day you will feel the same and put back the pieces of my broken heart.

But I guess I am the one who needs to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart - one by one, piece by piece.

I need to put it together again, some how. some way.

Each piece of my heart has a memory so true.
Each piece of my heart has part of you.

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The past is not yet over and it left a scar so real.
We don't choose who we can love, and love doesn't really die.
You can find it in your heart again.